Dreams

I woke up from an interesting dream this morning.
Where to start?
Well fundamentally it supports my conscious decision to file for divorce.
In the dream, I was as I am now married to my husband but my daugther was not mentioned and I had an urgent meeting/date to attend. I remember looking in my closet frantically trying to find some thing presentable to wear; and watching the clock on the wall practically spin out of control as it erratically changed from a digital to a traditional display of time.
I finally found something to wear; a black shear skirt with a black silk slip and a top to match. I also rember considering my wedding dress but pushed it aside when I was searching for an outfit in my closet. My wedding dress is more like the dress that I got married in; outside of the wedding there is nothing extraordinary about it. Then my outfit changed as I saw an image of a woman walking. My outfit morphed into hers like I wanted. The outfit was then a long black hooded cloak, elegant gloves that raised above the elbows and a form fitting dress that stopped above the knee. I had on some killer high heals too. The only colors that I remember are black, deep purple, and grey.

The part of the dream that stands out the most to me is the fact that the man I was going to meet was a guy from my Middle School days. He was the only guy that I remember treating me nicely or in a gentle way. I use to act so obnoxious back then but it was only because I did not know how to act around males and simply wanted their attention.
Out of all of the boys I remember he was truly the nicest. He never cursed at me or called me cruel names and always spoke to me in public but that ended once we reached high school. It was like I became invisible. We even had a biology class together in the 9th or 10th grade but he never spoke to me.
So, in the dream he was some sort of computer technician who needed to work on my computer and wanted to meet after work in order to talk about my computer. I only got so far as getting dressed and walking towards a restaurant table where he was sitting before the alarm clock went off.
It doesn't take much to pull these images apart and figure out what the dream is truly about; the wish that my heart can no longer bury inside of me.
Hopefully, next year will be a better year for me.

Michael Jackson RIP

I don't consider myself to be a MJ fanatic but I did love a lot of his songs.
Yesterday, after I was called by a co-worker; after the shock wore off; and his death had been confirmed by CNN news, I called my mother and left a message on her cell phone.
I couldn't believe it. I'm still having difficulty believing it now. There are so many of my life events that can be tied to a MJ song.

My cousin, especially, I know that she is mourning his death too. When we were children, she and my youngest sister watched, sang, and performed to his movie Moonwalker. I kid you not it was a daily event for the duration of a summer vacation in Arizona.

I went to Youtube, before blogging and I finally looked up the music video "Say Say Say" that MJ did with Paul McCartney http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5gWvBXS2t4A
This song has been stuck in my head for nearly a week now but every time I got to a computer I would forget to look it up. Watching this video takes me back to my early childhood in the 80s when he was at the top of his career and fame.
Regardless of all of the negative press and attention that he had received particularly over the past 16 years there is no denying that Michael Jackson was a musical genius and that he will always be loved and will always live through his music. May he finally rest in peace.

Blah

I'm feeling like "Blah" today.
The only thing that I'm looking forward to is the same as last week and the week before: a new episode of True Blood Season 2.
Episode three of Season 2 looks promising.
I have tried to write creatively and was able to type one page; that I read only to my mother and she said that it scared her. After I told her that I wrote it she was very impressed. But how biased can a parent's opinion be? I need to read my page to some one else and see what they think.
I would love to be able to write a story that is as intriguing and exciting as the vampire shows that I have been watching.
Another vampire series that I found on the Internet is Blood Ties. The series is on a basic cable channel so it is not nearly as graphic as True Blood but it kept me entertained while I waited for the second season to air.
I tried watching Moonlight but the only episode that I enjoyed watching was the first one.
Maybe I'll be blessed with a good story to write, sell, and finally earn a fortune.
But until then I will continue to feel like Blah.