Dreams

I woke up from an interesting dream this morning.
Where to start?
Well fundamentally it supports my conscious decision to file for divorce.
In the dream, I was as I am now married to my husband but my daugther was not mentioned and I had an urgent meeting/date to attend. I remember looking in my closet frantically trying to find some thing presentable to wear; and watching the clock on the wall practically spin out of control as it erratically changed from a digital to a traditional display of time.
I finally found something to wear; a black shear skirt with a black silk slip and a top to match. I also rember considering my wedding dress but pushed it aside when I was searching for an outfit in my closet. My wedding dress is more like the dress that I got married in; outside of the wedding there is nothing extraordinary about it. Then my outfit changed as I saw an image of a woman walking. My outfit morphed into hers like I wanted. The outfit was then a long black hooded cloak, elegant gloves that raised above the elbows and a form fitting dress that stopped above the knee. I had on some killer high heals too. The only colors that I remember are black, deep purple, and grey.

The part of the dream that stands out the most to me is the fact that the man I was going to meet was a guy from my Middle School days. He was the only guy that I remember treating me nicely or in a gentle way. I use to act so obnoxious back then but it was only because I did not know how to act around males and simply wanted their attention.
Out of all of the boys I remember he was truly the nicest. He never cursed at me or called me cruel names and always spoke to me in public but that ended once we reached high school. It was like I became invisible. We even had a biology class together in the 9th or 10th grade but he never spoke to me.
So, in the dream he was some sort of computer technician who needed to work on my computer and wanted to meet after work in order to talk about my computer. I only got so far as getting dressed and walking towards a restaurant table where he was sitting before the alarm clock went off.
It doesn't take much to pull these images apart and figure out what the dream is truly about; the wish that my heart can no longer bury inside of me.
Hopefully, next year will be a better year for me.

Michael Jackson RIP

I don't consider myself to be a MJ fanatic but I did love a lot of his songs.
Yesterday, after I was called by a co-worker; after the shock wore off; and his death had been confirmed by CNN news, I called my mother and left a message on her cell phone.
I couldn't believe it. I'm still having difficulty believing it now. There are so many of my life events that can be tied to a MJ song.

My cousin, especially, I know that she is mourning his death too. When we were children, she and my youngest sister watched, sang, and performed to his movie Moonwalker. I kid you not it was a daily event for the duration of a summer vacation in Arizona.

I went to Youtube, before blogging and I finally looked up the music video "Say Say Say" that MJ did with Paul McCartney http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5gWvBXS2t4A
This song has been stuck in my head for nearly a week now but every time I got to a computer I would forget to look it up. Watching this video takes me back to my early childhood in the 80s when he was at the top of his career and fame.
Regardless of all of the negative press and attention that he had received particularly over the past 16 years there is no denying that Michael Jackson was a musical genius and that he will always be loved and will always live through his music. May he finally rest in peace.

Blah

I'm feeling like "Blah" today.
The only thing that I'm looking forward to is the same as last week and the week before: a new episode of True Blood Season 2.
Episode three of Season 2 looks promising.
I have tried to write creatively and was able to type one page; that I read only to my mother and she said that it scared her. After I told her that I wrote it she was very impressed. But how biased can a parent's opinion be? I need to read my page to some one else and see what they think.
I would love to be able to write a story that is as intriguing and exciting as the vampire shows that I have been watching.
Another vampire series that I found on the Internet is Blood Ties. The series is on a basic cable channel so it is not nearly as graphic as True Blood but it kept me entertained while I waited for the second season to air.
I tried watching Moonlight but the only episode that I enjoyed watching was the first one.
Maybe I'll be blessed with a good story to write, sell, and finally earn a fortune.
But until then I will continue to feel like Blah.

Cheesy 90's Commercial Moment

Remember those goofy mint candy commercials that were aired in the 1990's and were even spoofed in a music video by the Foo Fighters?

Well, this morning I had a Mintos moment.

On my way to day care I stopped at a neighboring Shell gas station. I chose the wrong side too because there was a huge beer truck parked and unloading cases. I decided to park on the other side of the gas pump isle where the beer truck was unloading. The isles are wide enough to accommodate two cars at once so if people drive to an isle and all of the pumps are busy then they can continue to drive around the convenience store (center) to the other side where there are more gas pump isles. So, I was fine at first while fueling my car when a woman pulled up next to the pump in front of me.
I got annoyed about not being able to just drive out ahead but figured that I could just drive around her car to the right. So as I'm getting back in to my car, a second car pulled up to the pump behind me while a third car (practically on cue) pulled up in front and parked next to the car in front of mine and directly next to the convenient store.
The woman pumping gas looked at me then at the tattooed neck, guy (dressed as a service station employee no less) and said "Hey, you're blocking her in." As the guy was getting out of his car he looked at the woman then raced in to the convenient store. The woman then looked at me again but with her eyes and mouth wide open as if to say "No way." I had the same expression on my face. So, I sat for a second and realized that there was still an opening behind me.
Quickly before a fourth car could come, I shifted my vehicle in to reverse and slowly eased my way backward around the car behind me, careful not to bump it or the raised side walk that boarders the convenience store island.
Wouldn't you know it, a fourth car from the opposite isle, near the big beer truck, decided to exist just as I was starting to clear the side walk and parked car. The older man continued to drive and for a second we drove parallel around the same corner.

I made it out!

Jerks or no jerks, I made it passed those little every day annoyances.
So, as I was driving off thinking about how inconsiderate those guys had been I suddenly heard "Do-do-do-do! Do-do! Do-ahhhhhhhhhh!" All I was missing was the hand size, paper wrapped, tube of white, minty candy to hold up next to my cheesy grinned face.

Thinking about the goofy similarity helped me to not drive back to the Shell station and demand to speak to tattoo neck's manager and complain about his rude behavior. Besides, I had figured my way out of a tight spot on my own. I AM pretty good at figuring things out for myself.

On my mind

I was just watching a video by a group called Electric Six; their "Down at McDonnelzz" song/video cracks me up every time I watch it but I also like the music to this and a lot of their other songs. When I see creative people who are successful I feel so damn envious yet motivated at the same time. Where the hell are my skills?

Okay, its now 3:48pm and when I started this blog it was closer to 3pm. I got a call from my mother and our conversation has totally changed my train of thought. Anyways, there is a song that has been stuck in my head since I first heard it over an intercom at a Super 99 cent store last year; and it evokes bitter sweet emotions because A) I was at the store shopping with my mother and B) I truly like it because the melody seems so nostalgically simple; is a song titled "Young Folks" by Peter Bjorn and John. Apparently this song has been available since 2006 but I just learned about it in 2008 and was able to finally find the name last week thanks to the MTV-U channel on cable. This song has inspired me to open a free account with a website radio station at www.Pandora.com that plays music which is similar to songs/artist that the user lists. So, I'm enjoying songs that I already enojoy but I'm also being introduced to new ones as well.
So, since I've lost the initicial mood and reason for blogging in the first place, I'm done for today.

Finished another animated series

I'm bummed out again.
I just finished watching episode 26; the final animated episode of the Ouran High School Host club. It was great too. SO dramatic but ending in a way that could be left as is or continued.
Yesterday while I was watching the series I laughed so hard that I was in tears because of episode 22 "Mori-senpai Has an Apprentice Wannabe."
Now, I'm going to have to find another series to follow. My husband gets so annoyed with the increased amount of time that I spend on the computer now due to watching anime. He use to have the computer all to himself to listen to music, play games - especially poker, and of course view porn. As soon as this depressing economic financial crisis is lifted and as soon as my husband is able to get steady work I will begin purchasing anime series starting with my favorite: Hellsing. Then of course Fruits Basket and Ouran High School Host Club. I'm sure that there will be many more as well because I am truly fixated on anime now, almost to the point where I want to go to Japan- as if the characters are real and actually live there. I hope that I'm not loosing it - my mind that is.

Lover of Anime not manga

Okay, its official I like the Ouran High School Host Club anime series. I was actually watching episode 13 when I decided to write this. Episode 13 is inspired by an Alice in wonderland theme. Though I did try reading the book by Lewis Carroll in high school (it is so much different than my beloved Disney movie version) all I really remember is the kitchen scene with the Duchess and the cook and the cloud of black pepper. I actually stopped reading the book at that point because it was much too different than the movie. Silly girl, I didn't realize back then that the book was first.
Anyways, I know that I said that I would try viewing Gender Blue after viewing the last animated episode of Fruits Basket but I couldn't get in to it or in to Speed Grapher. I totally would have enjoyed Speed Grapher too if I had watched it directly after my taste of Hellsing or even after my introduction to the Vampire Knight anime series but I saw Fruits Basket instead. I can't believe that I initially did not want to watch it but by the fifth episode I was hooked and then by the time I got to the final episode #26 I didn't want it to end. It was, in my opinion getting even better at episode 26 when Tohru goes to the Soma household to ask Akito if she could continue living in the other house with Shigure, Yuki, and Kyo. All of this directly after she saw Kyo in his true form; up until that point I thought that the black and white beads that he wore on his left wrist were just an accessory. I was so bummed out when I realized that it is the final animated episode. The series continues in comic book strip/manga but it is very different from the animated version.
So, now I'm watching the Ouran High School Host Club and it is cracking me up it is so funny. The characters are all so overly dramatic, silly and there is plenty of cross dressing too. I've noticed that I seem to be attracted to anime that has rich people, a single gal surrounded by multiple guys (excluding Hellsing which has my favorite maniac Alucard around two females), and some sort of secret. Gee I wonder what my viewing interest say about me? What is it that I truly desire? Money/wealth is a definite given but what else is there?